It is amazing how easy it is to give advise when we are not directly involved in a situation. We have all the answers and we cannot understand why people wont just listen, after all you are only telling them this because you love them and you have their best interest at heart.
What is more amazing though is how easily we tend forget that somebody else “has our best interest at heart”. When its our turn to listen we find ourselves saying “its different” and “you wouldn’t understand”. Where were those phrases when we were “caring” about everybody else. How did we understand then? Hmm?
The Pussycat Dolls have a song that i always sing (though I don’t know most of the words). There is one particular line that i like and i always say it to my friends and random people too – “Be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it!” Sadly when I was to say this to myself I conveniently didn’t notice that i needed to finally take my own advice. Instead I pushed an issue which I should’ve left alone. I just had to go there… silly me!
If I forget all the problems I have with school and the fact that I don’t get enough sleep and is therefore very tired, my life is great. I’m doing fine and I am happy. Why then would I willingly force an issue that only brought me pain. What did I expect to happen? What did I think would come out of it?
I really don’t know. I haven’t been able to answer these questions for myself yet. I pretty much begged a conversation with the ex and it was heart-wrenching. I never imagined the things he’d say. Had no idea how it’d make me feel and when I finally heard them it hit me and hit me hard… I spent the past week wishing I never went there. But just today i came to the realization that maybe it was a good thing I didn’t let the proverbial sleeping dog lie. The conversation that caused me pain and ended in tears streaming down my cheeks is the conversation that allowed me to be free.
So i still think you should be careful what you wish for cause more times than not it doesn’t come how you imagined. However I also think that life is a gamble and you only get to live once. Sometimes it might be worth it to wake the darn dog up, it might be for the best.
Til next time,