After Spending 3 days at home with food poisoning I’m heading back to work tomorrow and I’m not feeling up to it. I have slept for countless hours yet I am very tired and having eaten very little solid food since Monday I have zero energy.

I’ve been browsing through WordPress trying to find some motivation to settle my mind so I can sleep peacefully and head out early tomorrow and these quotes have given me some form of piece so far…

“One day we’ll all realise that feeling uninspired should be inspiration enough.” – Justin David Cox, Designer

In the end, we only regret the chances we didn’t take, relationships we were afraid to have, and the decisions we waited too long to make. ~ Author unknown

The only person you should try to be better than, is the person you were yesterday.”

“I don’t need to know my final destiny right now, all I need to worry about is just getting on the path!!”

*inhales* *exhales*

now that I’m calm I need to get some sleep and try to make the most of tomorrow.




One of those Days

Some days are easy

Some days I can get through without even having to think about what I’m doing

Some days I’m happy and relaxed and motivated  and caring and efficient and UNSTOPPABLE

But then there are other days

Days like today

Days when I’m miserable and short tempered and angry and IMPATIENT

I hate days like these…

Days when I want to give up on life and work and friendship and love and ambition

Days when I feel like the universe is out to get me and I have failed myself half as much as others have failed me

Days when I wish that I could close my eyes and escape to a world where I have no responsibilities and no one to think about but me

Days when I want to get a drink or two or three and just get lost in the pain

Days when I want to be ALONE

I hate days like these… hate them.


An open letter to Karma

Dear Karma,

I started writing you this letter more than a month ago and for some reason I have not been able to complete it. But I’ve been trying to cleanse for the new year and I think this letter is in important step in that process.

I know I’ve never spoken to you directly before although you have been the subject of many a conversations but I need to ask you a favour and you cant say no. You just cant!

According to  in Hinduism and Buddism you are defined as  “bringing upon oneself inevitable results, good or bad, either in this life or in a reincarnation.” …To the rest of the world… well, you are pretty much seen as “what goes around comes around.”

Now I know that in the past I have not given you the respect that you deserve having succumbed to the pressures of society and called you a “bitch” among other colourful words but you must understand that I never meant it in a degrading manner *looks away* and for this I am sorry.
Now with that being said… I find it necessary to remind you of how helpful I’ve been to so many people, whether it was listening when they needed an ear, wiping away tears, “lending” money I knew I would never get back, dropping coins in the Salvation Army kettle, doing the kiddies  homework… and I could go on but I don’t think I should (modesty is a quality greatly admired by many).
I wont go on my knees, I wont grovel and I wont beg… instead I’m respectfully asking that whatever rewards you have in store for me be given to me in this lifetime and not in a reincarnation. I did religious Education in High school, I know a thing or two about beliefs in reincarnation and people don’t necessarily come back as people. While it would be a great honour to come back as a Hindu cow and be held in the highest esteem in some parts of the world I just want a few good fortunes in this lifetime. A few good fortunes in the very near future. Like this year… this month… this week… today *face palm*
So Karma, What do you think? Can you grant me happiness, prosperity and wealth for 2013? Think about it.
Thanks in advance,
PS… Happy New Year!