Blah

Growing up sucks. Reality has a way of making it so hard to dream.

I think I need a sabbatical. What does that even mean though?

Hmm… I should probably find out.

 

Sherjei

Conversations With Myself

I’m not crazy… I promise. But sometimes I find it is good to have a conversation with myself, to shut the world off for a few moments and just think. Today was one of those sometimes.

You see, I’m at that place in life where I’m still regretting not doing a lot of things I wanted to do for various reasons over the past few years and I seem to be caught between a place of blaming others for some of the decisions I made and being fearful about my future because of it. I love those pictures that people always post saying “I have no regrets about life because everything that has happened made me who I am today” but I’m just not there yet. I want to be but I’m not.

I have always been super cautious and the entire world seems to admire this about me… well the entire world except me. Some days I want to throw caution to the wind and just Do! Just Live… unfortunately these are usually the days that my bank account tells me to sit the f**k down or a utility company emails me my upcoming bill. But you get what I mean.

I find that I’m still asking God why me even though I have tried to take the approach of why not me…. So today I took a few minutes, put my headphones on and blasted a YouTube playlist of P!nk’s awesome songs. I tried to find my center, my inner peace while I had a conversation with myself.

I find that conversation was necessary so I could remind me to focus on my goals and continue trying to forgive myself for past mistakes while learning from them for the future.

As I said… I promise I’m not crazy but sometimes you have to have a small conversation with your self.

#throwback... May 2008. I think I've been talking to myself for a while now lol

#throwback… May 2008. I think I’ve been talking to myself for a while now lol

Toodles!

Sherjei

Sigma 2014 – My very first 5K

Initially I planned to write a very long and detailed post about my very first 5k but I’ve still not been able to find the time so… Here’s the short version.

I had a lot of fun, and I definitely intend to do it again! 🙂

Balloons!!!! ... its go time

Balloons!!!! … its go time

IMG_20140216_072221

Bestie trying to take our pic and the man behind us shouts “Selfie” lol

IMG_20140216_065740

I wasn’t ready for the pic cause there was a rasta man passing and his locks are really neat …#dontjudgeme

IMG_20140216_060706

Pic isn’t too clear but my sexy sister excited to go walking

I love this pic cause it looks like I'm really power-walking but I was just fixing my shirt :D lol

I love this pic cause it looks like I’m really power-walking but I was just fixing my shirt 😀 lol

Toodles!
Sherjei

I’m so Glad that, Jesus Knows

You know those days when you go to pray and you can’t quite find the right words to express how you’re feeling? On those days I usually end up saying something along the lines of “Jesus, you see and you know” and believe it or not it kinda sorta calms me… most times.

The past week has been pretty rough for me and now that I want to pray I find that all I can do is sing this song. I need to ask God something but I can’t find the words… Sweet baby Jesus… When it rains, it POURS. You see and you know!

There are times I, get discouraged,
Trying to carry, its hard
Some times this heavy load.
But I decided, to keep on toiling,
I’m so glad that, Jesus knows.

When it rains, it pours!
Storm cloud rise, billows roll.
Just seek Jesus, He’ll bring sunshine,
I’m so glad that, Jesus knows.

There are times we all are, faulty accuse
All because, of what, some thing,
Someone has told.
They won’t believe in you in you side,
No matter what you try to do,
I’m so glad that, Jesus knows.

When it rains, it pours!
Storm cloud rise and billows roll!
(Thank you Jesus!)
Just seek Jesus, He’ll bring sunshine!
I’m so glad that, Jesus knows.

When there are troubles, in your home,
When deep down in your heart,
you know for Yourself, you’ve done no wrong.
Get on your keens and
Give it to Jesus, Hell take control!
Just be glad that, he knows!

When it rains, it pours!
Storm cloud rise, and sometimes,
Billows roll! Just seek Jesus!
He’ll bring sunshine! Yes,
I’m so glad that Jesus knows!

(Let’s say it one more time!)
When it rains, it pours!
Storm cloud rise, thank you Jesus, billows roll!
Just seek Jesus, (Thank you Jesus!)
He’ll bring sunshine! Yes,
I’m so glad that, Jesus knows