Is it Still Day 1 If You’re Starting Over For The 100th Time?

After weeks of making excuses I finally got off my ass and went to the gym last night. I have been delaying this for a while as it marks Day 1 of my newest attempt to lose weight. I actually don’t know if I am allowed to refer to it as Day 1 as I have started this process at least 100 times in the past few years.

This is a scary process for me as every time I have tried and failed I end up 10 pounds heavier than I was before and slightly depressed, then I go through a phase of self loathing.

See… I have never lacked the will to start working out or to start eating right… Starting is easy for me! What I have always failed at is the discipline to see it through. I start, I get excited, I go hard and then two weeks later a miss a day and a day turns into a week and a week into a month and the rest, as they say, is history.

As I undertake this journey my long term goal is to be a healthier version of myself and also 40 lbs lighter version of myself. I have not set a timeline on when I would like to achieve this just yet but my current plan is to take it all one day at a time, one week at a time, one achievement at a time.

Last night I went to the gym for the first time in over two months. I had a good workout but I struggled with things that should’ve been easier for me. It was a bit disheartening but if I must be real I couldn’t have expected anything different.

So as I struggled through the basic exercises that Miss J gave me to do I kept thinking that I tomorrow I will be better, tomorrow I will do more, tomorrow I will definitely be better.

At the end of the session I asked for some advice on dietary changes that I will need to start making and here is Miss J’s advice.

Foods to avoid:

  1. Rice (easy for me as I don’t particularly like Rice)
  2. Flour (no more fried dumplings in the mornings)
  3. Patty (this one will be hard)
  4. Sugar (replace drinks with water, lessen the amount I use in tea)
  5. Alcohol (good thing I finished that bottle of wine last weekend :))

This time I want real results, this time I want to see this through. I would love your feedback, advice and encouragement along the way.

Here are my starting stats… Let’s see what these will be when I make an update on stats in two weeks!

Day 1… (for the 100th time) 

  • Weight: 182 lbs
  • Height: 5ft 5in
  • Bust: 44in
  • Waist: 37in
  • Hip: 45in
  • Emotion: Cautiously hopeful
  • Current Goal: Workout at least 4 days this week.

~ Shermaine