After weeks of making excuses I finally got off my ass and went to the gym last night. I have been delaying this for a while as it marks Day 1 of my newest attempt to lose weight. I actually don’t know if I am allowed to refer to it as Day 1 as I have started this process at least 100 times in the past few years.
This is a scary process for me as every time I have tried and failed I end up 10 pounds heavier than I was before and slightly depressed, then I go through a phase of self loathing.
See… I have never lacked the will to start working out or to start eating right… Starting is easy for me! What I have always failed at is the discipline to see it through. I start, I get excited, I go hard and then two weeks later a miss a day and a day turns into a week and a week into a month and the rest, as they say, is history.
As I undertake this journey my long term goal is to be a healthier version of myself and also 40 lbs lighter version of myself. I have not set a timeline on when I would like to achieve this just yet but my current plan is to take it all one day at a time, one week at a time, one achievement at a time.
Last night I went to the gym for the first time in over two months. I had a good workout but I struggled with things that should’ve been easier for me. It was a bit disheartening but if I must be real I couldn’t have expected anything different.
So as I struggled through the basic exercises that Miss J gave me to do I kept thinking that I tomorrow I will be better, tomorrow I will do more, tomorrow I will definitely be better.
At the end of the session I asked for some advice on dietary changes that I will need to start making and here is Miss J’s advice.
Foods to avoid:
- Rice (easy for me as I don’t particularly like Rice)
- Flour (no more fried dumplings in the mornings)
- Patty (this one will be hard)
- Sugar (replace drinks with water, lessen the amount I use in tea)
- Alcohol (good thing I finished that bottle of wine last weekend :))
This time I want real results, this time I want to see this through. I would love your feedback, advice and encouragement along the way.
Here are my starting stats… Let’s see what these will be when I make an update on stats in two weeks!
Day 1… (for the 100th time)
- Weight: 182 lbs
- Height: 5ft 5in
- Bust: 44in
- Waist: 37in
- Hip: 45in
- Emotion: Cautiously hopeful
- Current Goal: Workout at least 4 days this week.